Have a great weekend!!

Happy Friday ... to those that may care what day it is. (hehe)

For me ... well, I have no real info to share yet. I did have labs done, however, after a month of being on B12 supplements, and what I feel are disturbing issues, I had some labs that came back "great" others, not so much, especially in my own opinion. I am disappointed on so many levels.

With that being said, I would like to wish everyone a relaxing weekend. I have an appointment, again, in Phoenix on Monday with my neuro ... hopefully, he will shed some more light on this train wreck in which I am losing ground in my battle to recover. I am concerned due to the fact my scheduled appoint on 6/11 was bumped up in part because of these labs .... ??? I don't know how to feel, what to think .... I feel so scattered in past months. It really isn't me.

For today ... boy, I hope I can do today ... I have a financial appt at 10, a doc appointment at 12:30 (my poor right thumb is stuck ... so there is another BFN in my future, and then HT and I are going to try and walk around the home show (hoping Friday is a slower of the 3 day show). I don't do so well with big crowds these days .... too many people, sends me home.

To all ... have a wonderful weekend!!
Be good to yourself, be good to each other!!
PLEASE :)

Peace and Light
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Has anyone seen this ???

I can't wait to check out this episode.
No one can act this like we type 1s live it.

All the awareness we can get!!!

http://www.jdrf.org/index.cfm?page_id=117129

Have a wonderfully relaxing evening!!
Peace and Light
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The littlest soldiers ...

it doesn't get any easier as we age as the disease begins to take it's toll.

Support a cure!! The JDRF is, and has always been focused on the cure (including stem cells!!)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o1_ziZzbgwM&list=UUDtH5ogRvev_VVf7-nQiPPg&index=2&feature=plcp

This video isn't new, it just makes one think about the future.


Peace and Light
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I hope ALL the mothers in not only my life, but the world had a day as wonderful as they are!!!

I know I haven't posted, and I can say life has been a struggle lately, with my health, as well as the backup of household issues from A-Z.

I saw this post and just had to share this news. It is an amazing write up and I hope that all find this a bit inspiring in where we can go NOW!!! I can honestly say, I am hoping, praying, that with a couple of more treatments and a few advances ... I too, will be one of these few, first inspirations to others who can benefits. 

PLEASE SUPPORT THE ADVANCEMENT OF ADULT STEM CELL TREATMENT!!!!! So many are praying for better lives.


http://www.newsmax.com/SciTech/somers-stem-cell-breast-Re-growth/2012/02/07/id/428732

Be good to yourself ... Be good to each other!!
Peace and Light
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Friday 5/4/12

Good Morning ....
and a happy start to the weekend!!

Not much to report. It has been a couple of very frustrating weeks. Being alone with just the dog is not making my attempt at recovery any easier. I am have a very difficult time with organizing.... and most of all ... any sort of decision to be made. My mind wanders, it is like a major case of ADD and I don't know what to do to fix it. I have my first real psychotherapy appointment this afternoon and I don't like to be mean, or nasty, it sucks my energy away and I become even less productive. Maybe it is time (almost 6 months) for me to get angry ... and for as much as I don't want to direct it at this woman, she is getting paid a nice sum to listen to me .... and then, if she isn't ready to slap me, she can help guide me with some new tools, as the once always dependable one I used, don't seem to be doing the trick.

I have been on this B12 supplement for a month now .... along with some other brain promoting supplements and I have to tell you ... it would take dynamite up my ass to get the energy flowing!!! This too, has been exceptionally frustrating as I have found myself just saying, "can't do it" and have to lay down ..... which has turned into some long naps ..... like laying down at 5 or 6 and being out cold until the next morning. Blood sugars seem to be holding with still the occasional lows, but the tweaking of the insuling dosage has continued to remain on the downward direction. Next week I get all my labs drawn, lipids, CMP, A1c, the B12, folate and homocysteine levels. I certainly hope the "easy fix" the neurologist said this would be is true, /cause it sure doesn't feel like it.

Almost everything I touched this week broke or blew up ..... including my laptop.  Frustrated, is a mild word .... I was so pissed, so livid with myself I came close to just busting into tears .... instead ... I think I went to bed on more than one night.  Yesterdays trip to the dermatologist ended with no actual cuts being made as now it should be tended to by a plastic surgeon. It is so close in proximity to my actual eye, that a plastic/reconstructive surgeon is going to have to remove the spot and make me pretty. Another major irritation on my part, it couldn't be my left eye .... ??? ..... you know that one on the same side as my driving side, in which appears WAY more wrinkled than the right .... NOOOOO ..... it is right smack dab in the middle of my right lower eye lid. I am thinking I should do a documentary of my scars .... LOL ...... I am flipping covered with surgical scars, and I think I can probably give a pretty good direction of my life via these aging reminders ..... LOL ....

Anyway ... Maggie and I will be taking a little ride tomorrow .... how long I am gone depends on so many events, I want to say the day ... but then ..... anything could happen and I must be prepared in that event .... it has become almost too much to deal with just to go visit a friend. All the things I have to be prepared for in regard to making sure I have my meds, an emergency back up of insulin and all the things that go along with that ... which was second nature prior to the accident, is now just a major P.I.T.A.!!

On that note ... I am going to wish everyone a peaceful and relaxing weekend!! I do this because I feel the world moves too quickly these days .... and I think the older generation had the right idea in their manner in which they relaxed and enjoyed the outdoors, the family, etc. to dissolove lifes stressors.

Be good to yourself, be good to others!!!
Peace and Light
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Monday Monday .....

..... and I can't (but once did) remember the next line to this song. (can't trust that day??)

Anyway ... Happy Monday, and I hope this finds everyone had a good weekend. Mine ... well, was full of frustration. I am unsure of what is going on with my body and I don't like that. I have a week and a half until I undergo another round of labs .... my blood sugars have been dropping a lot, and I am pretty sure I am catching most of them in time to treat. But .... then there is this B12 issue. I thought, and have always heard from others that when they took B12 supplements or got their shots that they were all full of energy....??? After the neurologist told me I had a B12 deficiency and a homocysteine overload, he put me on B12 supplements and wanted repeat labs. Well ... I have to tell you .. that since starting this ... my ass has been draggin' beyond believe!!!! I don't understand what is going on. The psychotherapist is also telling me that a B12 deficiency is common in head injury patients. I am SO frustrated with myself ... currently, I am not my biggest fan and since the accident it is hard for some to deal/cope with me which I know I shouldn't ... but at times take it a bit personally.

Anyway .... Last week was a useless week productivity wise. I had doctor appointments and the driving ... well ... it just sucked the life right out of me and I don't really remember the rest of the week except in only involved hanging out in the house with the dog.

It is going to be a hot day .... and I am being discouraged from being out in the yard alone. I understand this to a point, but I have things that need to get done out there or no one will ever find me if the weeds get out of control. For the most part, I am living alone ... therefore ... I must do it. But, even I, am thinking power tools in my future today ... is out of the question. I need to make some much overdue phone calls in regard to securing some sort of future for myself ..having done this once before and it turned into a 2+ year process .... I am not looking forward to "begging" again for the help I not only deserve, but have paid into and now I NEED it. Otherwise, I will be placing an add looking for a husband .... hahahaha .... with excellent medical benefits for a potentially short relationship.... LOL.

I think it's funny ... but I am frustrated.

Ok kids ... I wish everyone a wonderful day!!
Be good to yourself, be good to each other.
Peace and Light
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April 29th 2012

Good Morning and Happy Sunday!!

I am not feeling well this morning. My blood sugars have been up and down for the past 2-3 days. (time for me means nothing lately) I crashed 3x on Thursday (I think) and with each crash, I have been able to catch it just a little more ahead of the curve, i.e.,  1st one was 44 when caught, the last one I caught as 60 with warnings, but ... then I just want to eat until I feel better as the crashing seems to be far more intense than I can ever recall. Recall ... not being my best subject these days. I am so beyond frustrated with the situation overall. The accident has changed my life as I knew it and I am angry to a point that I can't seem to pull my head out from up my ass to get a grip on what to do about it, and no one can tell me if it is or will ever be the way it was before. I had such high hopes of 2012 being a year to remember for positive reasons.

I had my meeting with the psychotherapist, and I can honestly tell you that I was not a happy girl with some of what was being told to me. I meet with her again on Friday ... guessing I should bring some of my anger and frustration with me this time ... not to aim it at anyone ..... Shall we say, I have a lot of personal, soul searching work to do, and for that, I have become sort of recluse .... I think it is better this way so that I don't hurt anyone unintentionally with words or moods. I am not happy with myself on this road, I can't imagine anyone else would be either. It has been odd, how some can handle this sort of change in others, and some try, but just can't bring themselves to participate. I completely understand ... it is and can be a sort of hopeless journey ... and when one feels hopeless ... SO many scenarios can play out.

I will stop, as I am not even sure I understood what I just typed. I didn't sleep well at all last night ... I mean some of these dreams I am having range from blissful to down-right freakin' scary!! Last night I was jailed!!! I have NEVER been jailed ... arrested ... the closest I have come is moving violation or parking ticket. I swear I spent half the night screaming and tossing around ... I am freakin' exhausted and have only been up for a couple of hours.

I am going to take that nice long, hot shower and see if I can't blow some life back into the old girl .... I am thinking it is going to be a  sort of low key day ... perhaps with some napping ... when what I should really be doing is outside ... but I am alone, and with doc instructions ... how far am I willing to push myself today ... this is just crap in my opinion ... I live alone now for the most part, and I WILL NOT allow friends to "babysit" if you will. Me and my life are not for them to worry about, although I am so blessed that they do, it really isn't their responsibility.

To ALL ... I wish a wonderful day and peaceful thoughts.
Peace and Light
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The video has posted!!

I hope the link below works.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qumjpRYKyhU

If not, you can check it out on YouTube-StemGenex videos. There are several videos from patients treated with various afflictions. ALL worthy of a look, and I look forward to seeing the follow up on the results and progress being made.

Been a long week for me, and I have been down a lot. The beginning of the week was just a lot for me to deal with physically, and apparently emotionally as well with the drive to Phoenix on Monday and doctor appointments both Monday and Tuesday. My function as far as my head isn't moving along as I would like and I continue to tire easily. I am being told repeatedly, I must set limits ... hahahaha ... time limits that allow me to rest and NOT push to the completion of a project. Well ... that is a whole lot easier said than done!! I push, and then, I crash ... it is a hard habit to break with life has always (or seems like) one hit after another, often times with no time in between to crash. Regarding "crashing" I have had a lot of low blood sugars this week, on Thursday, 3x. This after having dropped my insulin a 1/2 unit during the day, and a full unit over night. I am thinking, that it either needs to drop again, or I need to evaluate the math in regard to my insulin to carb ratio as that may still need to be adjusted as well. The lows also cause me to just want to sleep, which is good for my brain, but not so much for getting stuff done.

Enjoy your day!!
Be good to yourself, be good to each other!!
Peace and Light
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